We all have our routines from the way we wash to the way we prepare a meal. But I have a routine which I wouldn’t be surprised if it causes God to shake his head in bemusement and say hear we go again. It is a routine which comes from when there is some thing on my mind which I can’t shake and which begins to disrupt my day.
So it starts with a thought; now it may be a situation in my life surrounding some thing I have been asked to do, it may be some thing to do with my own psyche as I deal with issues of self-esteem and it may be some thing which I think might happen even though it probably won’t. But as it starts I find myself unable to focus on what I was planning on doing, be it trying to study my Bible, writing a movie review or preparing social media posts. And of course that struggle to stay focused leads to frustration and often a session of walking around, staring out of the window and generally trying to do some thing to take my mind off of what ever it is which is bugging me, trust me food does not help this matter.
Rarely does any of that work and so I pick up my various Bibles and start seeking advice, I say various as I have a few different versions including a youth Bible which is full of useful references to various passages which deal with things such as loneliness, depression and anger. Whilst this is all going on I am talking to God to show me some thing, to help me clear the mechanism of my brain so that I can get on doing what I had planned to do. And when the answer doesn’t come I find myself on the internet seeking wisdom from other Christians, not just in forums but in blog posts and Church websites. On a side note; let me say that whilst there are some great Christian websites you have to be discerning when it comes to some of these sites and the information on them so always have a bible at hand to check up on what they are saying.
Now all of this can take up an entire morning with every minute which passes adding to my increasing frustration as I know the work I had planned to do is still sitting there. It is then having gone through this routine that I usually make a fresh cup of coffee, grab my main Bible and go and sit on the middle step of the stairs. The middle step of the stairs is for me the quietest spot in the entire house with little in the way of visual distraction and I just sit there, some times processing my thoughts but often just praying and by praying what I really mean is handing over what ever is on my mind to God and in return he gives me peace. He gives me this sense of assurance that what ever was on my mind is either unimportant or that he will deal with it. Some times he gives me a scripture to back up what he is telling me although often he has already given me the scripture earlier on but I was so caught up in trying to deal with the issue by my own power and understanding I wasn’t taking it in.
The daft thing is, and as I said maybe God shakes his head in bemusement when this happens, I know what I should do when ever this happens, take it to the Lord in prayer. It mentions it various times in the bible such as in Mark 1:35 (NIV) “Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed“ and inMatthew 14:23 (NIV) “After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray“. But also in 1 Peter 5:7 (NIV) it says “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you“. So for all that frustration, all that wandering back and forth wasting time I should have simply gone to my quiet place and given the problem to God rather than trying to deal with it through my own strength and understanding.
So where is your quiet place, where do you go when things start to get on top of you and you need to just be with God with no other distraction?